Patience and Resignation
tags: [journal]
Patience is the word to live by amidst the mess I’m going through. There’s no use in frustration, as I already have the need and will to change. Time is lacking, and that’s a problem not easily solved, as I myself am quite optimized.
This situation evolves to a not so quiet resignation. My body feels it, as it burns through energy in an unproductive way. To make matters worse, disease is around those I love, and lacking magical powers, having all the medical treatment possible available to them, there’s nothing I can do.
Pale and motionless, I endure looking and caring for those I love, feeling absolutely powerless. What a tragedy this Sisyphean characteristic of the human condition is. A son, a father, a friend, a lover can do nothing whilst their dearest suffers. Resignation appears once again, as the only enduring solution.
When patience is lacking, I go for a stroll. My mind however must figuratively look like Swiss cheese. It makes me wonder how ridiculous I sound complaining about life, as after all it’s nothing more than human condition. What would Jesus say about this?